The practical mind wants to survive. Its impulsive and driven to keep you in check.
The Depressive mind wants to stop working. It’s destructive and wilful in making you self-sabotage.
The sharp contrast between these is confusing even when you are focused on understanding.
Take away the understanding and focus on feelings and its insanity.
Debilitating.
Alienating.
Everyone wants to help. Sure.
No one can help. No.
Not really.
Help yourself. Yeah, OK.
Hurt yourself. Alright. I guess.
You can’t help yourself. I can’t help myself.
Keep trying. Failing.
Push it. Garbage. Great song. Don’t even know why I’m crying right now.
I understand everything. And I understand above all that I know nothing.